Unlearning Sleepless Nights: The Real Stuff

I was awake a lot in my first year of university. I would sleep between 3 and 4 in the morning and would wake up sometime between 8 and 10 depending on my class time (yeah attendance). I was constantly exhausted and struggled to concentrate on anything and honestly have no real idea of how…

A Letter to You #1

To whom it may concern, Or, to you. I’m not ambivalent to you. Right now we are less than friends but more than strangers. We have that in-between appreciation where we are not each other’s last choice. A relationship based off relief and convenience and inexplicably good timing. In this life we could be friends,…

2017 Beaches (a long awaited review)

This is a nine-month late review, but we were a little slow to start this summer. These Beaches have all been added to my comprehensive ranking of Auckland beaches, so if you want to see their placement check it out. Kaitarakihi It was such a blustery day yet we managed to stumble onto the calmest…

Part 1: Soft

You came in and moulded me soft. I was a peach. Soft fuzz baby with smooth skin and sweet sunrise in my flesh. You held me for months. Warm in your hand –  sturdy fingers, rounded nails, knuckles a little tanner than the rest – and I moulded soft. Vulnerable; whispering secrets into the valley….

How Are You?

Fact: I am ineloquent. I feel like since I stopped writing I have so many feelings and words and weird screwed up expressions that as soon as I am asked a direct question I fall to pieces. I am not fun at parties. It’s frustrating because I love to talk. I like to hear what…

Unlearning Sleepless Nights: The Feelings

I mess around with insomnia most nights. Silent. Watching the port lights shine white on the water. Our relationship is bruised and ugly but I don’t quit it because I like the stillness.I like being so exhausted that sleep comes in minutes instead of hours. I trade my mornings for moments and stay, gripping tight…

Five thoughts on: Religion

I believe in God. I am a spiritual person but I am not religious. For me, spirituality and religion exist separately from each other, so you can be either or you can be neither or you can be both. Many of my close family are part of the Baha’i faith and I grew up with…

A Letter to Myself #1

This is a last ditch kind of effort. Throw it all in and hope to God it doesn’t miss way to write. I learnt the year before last that giving is not something that you can do indefinitely with a pure heart. That eventually you will need to take something or you will be left…

10 things I have Learnt in the Last Six Months

1.New friends – who have met you the way you are now and who somehow like you like this (???) – can sometimes be the most important people in your life. Treasure them. Stay real with them. 2. There is fucking gluten in everything. 3. Be who you are.And not in the happy-hippy-flippy way, but…

NEW YORK NEW YORK

Could a city be more perfect? New York City satisfies every expectation that you may have of it. The streets pulse  loud and bright and steady – the heartbeat that all the songs promise. We arrived into the early hours the morning. Stood breathing steam into the crisp air as uber drivers brushed layers of…