Ye Annual Throwback: BLOGNY 2018

Let’s take it back to the blog that begun it all with another throwback. 2014 was now 4 years ago – almost 5 as we come into the New Year. Yet I know that the writing I did back then is probably the best i will express myself. I remember writing this post sitting cross…

zar loves tessa from zar (a title chosen by tessa)

And one day it became irreparable. It wasn’t just a phase or a stage – I was different. The woman in the mirror didn’t look the way I remembered her and that was the scariest feeling of all. But by happenstance, or some great design one day I also met people who liked me as…

A Letter to Myself #1

This is a last ditch kind of effort. Throw it all in and hope to God it doesn’t miss way to write. I learnt the year before last that giving is not something that you can do indefinitely with a pure heart. That eventually you will need to take something or you will be left…

A Story for Every Track: MELODRAMA, Lorde

Track One // Green Light: Its summer and my skin is rough with heat and grit. I stop wearing shoes to the store to make me tougher, but there is something ragged in my chest. I don’t think about it when I don’t have to. I catch the bus, I cry and I clutch my own…

Things I Love (Short)

Things I Love: The ocean. The colour pink, but a smooth and soft sort of pink, the kind that is sunrise and lips and soft angora. Soft angora. Brown paper wrapping with string and little leaf decorations. Chocolates that come in boxes with fancy wrapping. The feeling of infinite possibility. Driving with the windows down…

I Got A Tattoo?

I kind of realised that a lot of the posts I have been drafting have been coming from this really small and sad part of me. Like they weren’t bad posts or written on bad topics, but they were built on this really vulnerable and weak foundation – which is weird because I am okay…

5 New Years Eves: BLOGNY 2016

As you all know by now New Year’s Eve is my favourite kind of holiday. I love the concept, I love how glamorous its painted to be (though is it ever?), I love the so many people come together for one moment of just pure hope and anticipation – it’s hilarious and intoxicating and my…

My First Blog Post: BLOGNY 2016

Before I had this blog I had another. I kept it from November 2014 until the following March and I also kept it to myself. Those months were the most precarious and the most outrageous. Full of rapid beginnings and brilliant emotion and endings so sudden they gave you whiplash, left you reeling- left me wanting to write. All of my posts…

Summer Playlists: BLOGNY 2016

A playlist for: When you are dancing. Warm colours, warm skin, freckle dusted shoulders, brown and tan and sweet. Grains of sand in your bed, in-between your toes. Grainy photos of the stars and your laugh and the ocean after midnight. Drunk off sunshine and the bitter of beer on someone else’s breath. Sangria and $10…

The Signs as I Know Them

a nothing post inspired by this because writing big posts is difficult and writing little bitty things feels like a holiday.  Aquarius: The ocean. Heavy bass that vibrates through you when you close your eyes. Driving at night with the windows down and the wind rushing past. A glass of red wine. Kissing. Sunshine falling on your…