The Pits of 2018: BLOGNY 2018

Every night we sit down for dinner and play ‘peaks and pits’ which is where we share the worst and best part of our day. The only rules are that you have to start with your lowlights (to end on a high) and the pits cannot outweigh the peaks. Guess we love happiness. But I…

6 Girls to Thank Today: BLOGNY 2018

She exudes confidence and joy. Looks beautiful in yellow. Always laughs at my jokes, her whole body shaking as she inhales, eyes lit up. She is always warm, easy to sling an arm around and talk to and she makes you feel included. Like it matters that you’re there. Picture a girl grooving soft to…

sorry for writing it down: BLOGNY 2018

I watched as you left all the girls who came before I just didn’t think.   Two peas in a pod. Avoid, avoid, avoid it. Now you avoid me.   Text: “Hey how are you – how is work? Are you happy?’ Then I delete it.   I guess you hurt me Like really really…

zar loves tessa from zar (a title chosen by tessa)

And one day it became irreparable. It wasn’t just a phase or a stage – I was different. The woman in the mirror didn’t look the way I remembered her and that was the scariest feeling of all. But by happenstance, or some great design one day I also met people who liked me as…

Unlearning Sleepless Nights: The Feelings

I mess around with insomnia most nights. Silent. Watching the port lights shine white on the water. Our relationship is bruised and ugly but I don’t quit it because I like the stillness.I like being so exhausted that sleep comes in minutes instead of hours. I trade my mornings for moments and stay, gripping tight…

Some Advice

Live with people who make you laugh. Cry laugh until there are streams rushing down your cheeks and your jaw aches and your head is crinkled inside and out and you can’t even breathe anymore because there is all laughter, no air. Live with people who make you ugly snort and curl up on the…

28th February

Hey it’s February and hey i’m exhausted. I am the kind of person who catches up on sleep in the morning and it has now been 8 days of early wake ups and long full days of people and activity and work. My breaks are limited, my mood is finally starting to turn but I am…

I AM LATE TO CATCH MY BOAT

I am meant to be leaving in twenty minutes and I am not dressed or packed or close to ready but the people I am going with are the ones who have forgiven me one million times over and will continue to forgive me as second nature forever. Even when I make us a few…

The Worst of 2016: BLOGNY 2016

Probably the only thing I like about this year is that it was satisfyingly, undoubtedly the worst. Partially that categorisation is selfish because what did I really suffer? But I think sometimes its ok to hurt selfishly. I have created a list of the ten  WORST THINGS ABOUT THIS YEAR. They are a mix of…

Cutting Ties: BLOGNY 2016

So a less festive post, but I know that Christmas isn’t the cheeriest for all. I watched this video by Dodie (I’ve probably seen it about 100 times in the last few weeks) and it really got to me, because something we all have to do in life is cut ties with people that we care a…